For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Living in this world that seems to be growing darker as the days quickly pass away, makes you really contemplate what life’s really about. Am I’m living or am I simply existing? Am I’m lining up with God’s will for my life, am I’m doing all that I was created to do? Knowing very well that we all fall short daily but am I truly doing the best with what I have been given. I desire peace, I frown upon evil, but the question I face daily is, “Am I doing enough?”
I do believe that some questions will not be answered until we meet our end. Will that end be what we expect it to be, for at this point whether we like it or not, death is a part of life? I do not want to look back on my life with disappointment and regrets, but I would rather look back on it with the knowledge that I have obtained from each experience. Was I able to help someone else with that knowledge? Did I add to the lives of those that were placed within my path, or did I take away? Did I remain gracious even in times of disappointment? Did I grieve too long or not long enough; were I a pleaser of man or a pleaser of God?
I desire to be a pleaser of God upon the arrival of my expected end. For it will come at a time appointed for us all. This may seem grim, but it’s something I felt led to write about. So, while I yet have breath, while I am yet being gifted life, I want to make it count. I desire greater intimacy with God, I desire to be a better wife, mother, sister, and friend. I desire to meet a stranger and greet them in Godly love. I desire to love beyond what my eyes see and to be good to those who may not have always been good to me. I want to be a better person than I was yesterday and to truly examine myself in the spirit of truth.
Then when that expected end does come, I shall only know peace. I shall have no regrets or any remembrance of disappointments. I shall await in God-given confidence, knowing fully that I eventually became who I was created to be. I shall have blessed assurance that my purpose was fulfilled. I shall await my Master to fulfill His promise, but for now, for now, I will live….
See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise,
Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.
Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is.
And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit;
Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;
Giving thanks for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;
Ephesians 5: 15-20